It's amazing how much your perspective can change over the years. When I went to middle school (and high school too, I guess) there were always kids who lived in "trailer parks." Some of them were my friends.. but I have to be honest with myself and admit I looked down on where they lived.

Well, things have come full circle on me.. because now I'm going to be moving into a park. If this had happened several years ago, I think I'd feel ashamed.. but I'm not, in fact I'm extremely happy! If I had ever visited those friends I would have realized how nice those homes really are. Much nicer and preferable to apartments. My parents found a really nice place that has everything we need - even things we didn't have at my old house. Things like a side-by-side fridge, which is nice when you're in a wheelchair because you can actually get into the freezer by yourself. The stove has knobs on the front versus above the stove-top. There is a nice garden tub. In the new place I'll have my own full bathroom! Everything is fresh and new looking.

It's going to be so great to finally have a place of our own after having to live with my grandparents for so long. My grandma's alzheimer's is worse than ever and if my aunts and uncle have their way she is never going to go to a nursing home - which she desperately needs. She needs the structure and stability, people around her that have alzheimers too so she doesn't feel inadequate anymore. They just don't understand she needs more care than they are ever going to be able to give to her, it's just not humanly possible. Not unless they get 24 hour-home care and no one can afford that. They're lucky to have insurance that will pay for the nursing home.

Anyway, it's just a bad situation and I'm glad my parents (and when I go home) will finally be out of it. I feel like one nasty chapter in my family's lives is finally coming to a close.. although it will be much nicer after I finally am able to go home.

In other news..

I'm extremely frustrated with photobucket. Everytime I go there the websites not coming up right. It comes up so unprofessional, like a website with a designer who only knows basic HTML code. It doesn't have any real graphics or depth - not even a background! Just plain white. I've tried reloading the website.. I even thought maybe it was my internet browser (IE 6 or 7) and so I used Google Chrome, and it was the same thing. As far as I can tell no one else is having this problem.. but for me it's making the website completely unusable. Everything just comes up in lists that don't make any sense. I can barely even search! Ugh, i hate it.