I don't know if I have shared yet that I'm adopted. I was adopted when I was 6 months old, have no recollection of my birth mom, or of my loving foster family (except of the pictures I saw and things I heard from my parents about my foster mom.) For some reason, lately, I've been thinking of writing a letter to my birth mom. I don't know if this is technically possible.. for a lot of reasons. My adoption was for a good reason, honestly, even though I am a very pro-life person, she would have been very much within her rights to have an abortion.. and it would have even have made sense to do that. Instead she chose to be brave and sacrfice 9 months of her life so that I could have a life. Then she made the decision to give me a better life by putting me up for adoption. I have so much respect for her and the choices she made for me.

I have never once thought about seeking her out in person, or invading her life. The circumstances of my adoption, think it would just cause a lot of hurt and distruption and that is exactly why she gave me up in the first place. I would never want to do that to her. I wish only the best for her... I have such a compulsion lately to just let her know I feel. I want her to know how much I appreciate everything she did for me. That I recognize the hard decisions she made and made them even though they probably weren't easy for her. How she put my life first, the things that were good for me, instead of ending her embarrasing situation after she learned she was pregnant.

I want her to know she made the right choice and that her choices lead me to be where I was meant to be. Where I am blessed to be.

I want her to know that she gave me my life and allowed my parents to give me a great life. I want her to know that if she ever decides to seek me out or wants to meet me, that the door is always open. However, I won't ever be the one to knock on her door because I don't want to open old wounds for her and her family. I owe them that much.

I just want her to know that her sacrifice for me don't go by unnoticed that I appreciate her and will always have a special place in my heart for her. She won't ever be the one I call "mom" but she was instrumental in giving me the life I have and I can't ever express my gratitude in words.